28 August 2007

Attack of the Killer Crab and My Series of Unfortunate Events

Pakiramdam ko nung nagpasabog si Lord ng qualities in random eh naglabas ako ng planggana para makarami ako ng masasalo, kaso mali ata yung timing ko. Malamang nung time na para sa pagiging accident-prone, mga kalahati nung percentage na para siguro sa mga taong ipapanganak sa araw na yun nakuha ko. To further elaborate...

Nung grade 4 ako, nagmamadali na akong bumaba mula sa classroom ko sa third floor pababa sa quadrangle kasi late na ako sa flag ceremony. Sa kamamadali ko, nadulas ako sa isang step sa taas ng stairs at dumausdos ako ng paupo hanggang sa ibaba. Para akong cartoon character, naririnig ko pa nga yung sound effects eh. Boink. Boink. Boink. Mga 20 na ganoon kasi twenty yung steps mula sa itaas hanggang sa dulo.

Twelve years old naman. Active kasi ako sa events sa subdivision namin up to now. Nag-lelector ako sa tuwing may mass o kaya naman nasa choir. Nung time na ito naatasan akong mangolekta ng pera para sa offertory sa misa. Medyo hindi pa maganda ang pagkakagawa ng chapel ng subdivision namin noon kaya nung pababa na ako, nakatapak ako sa hindi na pala nakakabit na hollow block sa altar at nalaglag ako sa baba IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. Malupit dyan, nakapalda pa ako niyan. Wa-poise to the highest level.

Nung thirteen years old ako, freshman in high school, habang tumatawid naman ako sa Tandang Sora, nagulungan ng motor yung isang paa ko. Buti na lang at buhay pa ang lahat ng kuko ko ngayon.

Walang significant na nagyari sa loob ng apat na taon, napahinga ata ako nun.

Seventeen years old, first year college habang may interclass activity sa PE 1. Sa di ko mawaring dahilan, kasali ako sa duck walk, heto pa lang nakakahiya na. Yung masugat ka pa habang ginagawa ang walang ka-kuwenta-kuwentang game na ito, mas nakakahiya. At hindi lang basta sugat, nagmukhang may mapa ng Pilipinas sa kanang binti ko. Kita ko nga ang Luzon eh.

First year pa rin, second sem naman. Tandang-tanda ko pa kelan nangyari 'to kasi kamamatay pa lang noon ni Rico Yan. Nagbabasa ako ng dyaryo sa terrace namin at nung paglipat ko ng page, tumama yung kanto sa kanang mata ko. Akala ko puwing lang kaya ang ginawa ko, ibinabad ko yung mata ko sa tabong may tubig. Nakuha ko pa nga mag-SM eh kahit luha ako ng luha. Akala pa nga nung isang saleslady nakipag-break ako sa boyfriend ko. Pero nung tatlong araw na at ganoon pa rin ang mata ko, nagpatingin na ako sa doctor. Naka-tatlong ophthalmologist ako dahil dito: isa sa Lanting, isa sa Healthway, at yung panghuli at pinakamagaling (na hindi ko alam bakit hindi ako unang nagpunta sa kanya in the first place) sa East Ave. Medical Center. Apparently, na-cut ang pupil ko at kung magtatagal pa ay magkakaroon ng corneal ulcer which may lead to blindness.

Kumusta naman yun?!

Second year. 3 PM pa yung class ko pero naligo na ako ng 10 AM. To my surprise, hindi na umiikot yung door knob. At dahil malayo ang banyo sa pintuan mismo ng kwarto, kahit anong sigaw ko eh hindi ako marinig ng caretaker. Nagsisigaw ako sa bintana sa likod. Sinigawan rin ako ng kapitbahay ng "Ang ingay mo may natutulog!" Gutom na gutom na ako kasi hindi naman ako nag-dinner the night before. Kaya pilit kong sinira yung door knob, pinukpok ko ng kahit anong makita ko sa banyo. Buti na lang at hindi ako claustrophobic dahil kung oo, patay na ako ngayon. Pero naisip ko na kailangan ko makalabas kasi pag nagkasunog, patay na talaga ako ngayon.

After five hours pa ako na-discover na nagkakalampag sa banyo. At hindi na ako nakapasok sa class ko. May quiz pa naman (at nung sinabi ko sa prof ko yung dahilan kung bakit wala ako, ayaw niya talaga akong paniwalaan.)

Third year college. I play center for my org's basketball team. Modesty aside, I know I can play well, or at least if compared to my other sisses. Alala ko pa yung kalaban namin noon, Microsoc. Ako yung binabantayan nila talaga, at dahil sa brutal sila maglaro, maka-ilang beses akong natapakan nung nagbabantay sa'kin. Ang result: nagkaroon ng internal bleeding yung loob ng kuko ko.

May karugtong pa yan. Nag-videoke kami noon sa 10411 sa LB ng org. Eh medyo nakainom na ako nun at hindi ko nakita yung cord ng mike sa sahig. Sumabit yung kuko ko at ang nagyari, konti na lang yung nag-aattach sa kanya sa toe ko. Pasintabi sa kumakain habang binabasa ang entry ko. Eh lasing na nga ako eh. Yun hinatak ko para matanggal. At nagdugo siya ng matagal.

Fifth year, graduating na ako. Ang PC ko na lagi ang ka-UBE (Ultimate Bonding Experience, napulot ko 'to kay Naya) ko. Kaya tuloy, laging sumasabit ang tuhod ko sa kanto ng computer table. Actually hanggang ngayon nangyayari pa rin 'to. Mga every three weeks may bago akong gasgas sa tuhod. At dahil sa bumabaliktad na ang mundo ko gawa ng plant design at thesis, tuwang-tuwa ako sa tuwing nakikita ko ang kama ko. Kaya one time, sa sobrang ecstatic kong matulog, bumuwelo ako ng paghiga. Kaso na-miscalculate ko yung distance ko mula sa headboard ng double-deck bed sa dorm. Kaya imbis na sa unan lumapat ang ulo ko, nauna siyang tumama sa bakal sa may ulunan ko. With a resounding sound na ikinatawag ng pansin ng roommate ko.

Kaya the next day, lahat ng kanto sa room linagyan ng foam ng roommate kong si Wena.

Saka naranasan ko na rin palang mauntog sa door knob ng banyo namin. Amazing noh?

Latest addition sa mga experiences ko na ito ay nung kumakain ako ng lunch kahapon. Nasugat ako ng dahil sa isang alimango. Nabuksan ko yung sipit ng matiwasay pero yung maliit na leg pa yung nakasugat sa'kin. At malalim pa yung sugat. Twice na nga rin siyang bumukas ulet.

Feeling ko isinumpa ako eh.

27 August 2007

Pisay Graduate Ako...Eh Ikaw?



Maybe we really can be smug about it at times, we the "iskolar ng bayan" but up to now I still cannot explain the feeling everytime I say that I am a graduate of Philippine Science High School. It has been ten years since I was that naive freshman and yet everything is still clear in my memory. Much more now that I was able to watch Pisay the Movie last night.

It was surreal that I could relate to everything that happened in the movie. Why did I want to enter Pisay? As early as the third grade, whenever I write in my friends' autograph books, I always answer that my dream is to enter Philippine Science High School. Pisay was just so prestigious plus the fact that they give stipends to their scholars. I remember the time that I called the admissions office to confirm whether I am one of the 240 students for Batch 2001. 240 out of the 60,000 hopefuls who wanted to be in the premiere high school of the country. I cannot explain the fear and excitement that I was feeling while I was waiting for the woman on the phone to give me the news. I actually had no expectations. I felt that it was quite impossible that I possess one of the brightest minds in the country. So when she told me that I indeed passed, I literally stood frozen for a minute.

And the rest, as they say, is history.

It was really nostalgic to see my beloved alma mater in a film. Though it was set in the eighties, high school seemed to be the same whatever year it is. The physics room where we also had our English class every Wednesday back in fourth year, the Physics teacher with a Visayan accent (Ma'am Toledo is that you?! Hats off to Eugene Domingo for her performance), the silver tray in the canteen, the dark blue lab gowns, the biology practical exams wherein you have to move to the next station when you hear the bell, the soccer field, the auditorium, the students who sadly were not able to finish their four years then became topnotchers in their new schools, high school puppy love that had to end because of certain circumstances, just about everything! Of course every student in Pisay could attest to this: that once a upon a time in high school, every teacher of yours delivered that speech that you should study well because you are the cream of the crop and that you should not waste the taxes paid by the Filipino people which is being used for you to be able to study here.

Then of course there was this eternal topic as to why we were only allowed to take science courses accredited by the Department of Science and Technology in college.

A line in the film said: "Bakit sir? Kapag twelve o thirteen ba ang isang bata alam na niya ang gusto niyang gawin pagtanda niya?"

True. I would have wanted to take up Marketing or Business Administration but because I would have to pay an amount equivalent to the four years that the government spent on my studies for four years, I chose to take up Chemical Engineering; and I really hated myself for doing so.

There was a scene in the film that really felt close to home. A young college graduate becomes one of the faculty members and develops close bonds with the students, kind of reminds me of Sir Alonzo.This teacher was also sort of an activist, bringing his students to the EDSA revolution back in 1986. I also had my share of experience with rallies as this repeats about 15 years later as we, Pisay Batch 2001, took a stand and rallied from our campus on Agham Road to the EDSA Shrine and participate in the ousting of then President Joseph Estrada in what is now known EDSA 2.

I will forever treasure my Pisay experience. This was where I developed friendships which I know will last a lifetime. The memories will always be embedded in every corner of my mind. I had goosebumps when I saw the graduation scene in the end of the film and hearing the school hymn once more had me really emotional.

I will not be the person that I am today had it not been for Pisay.

Kaya maangas na kung maangas. Pisay graduate ako, eh ikaw?

25 August 2007

At Least Girls Think

Early this afternoon, Christian Espinosa was scheduled to have his tutorial in college chemistry. To my surprise, he had me edit his essay for his English class. While I am a writer, I am not that confident to teact English, especially in the college level. Why? Simple: I cannot explain the differences of the participle, perfect and progressive tenses of verbs.

Kaya nga mas gusto ko ang Math hindi ba?

But since all I had to do was edit his five-page long essay about his trip from Ateneo to a computer shop where he plays DOTA (which up to now had me wondering how the hell did it reach five pages?!), I accepted the challenge. With my red ballpen as my weapon (actually it was Sarah's ballpen), I started correcting his paper.

At yun mas marami pang pula sa papel niya kesa sa sinulat niya .

In the almost four hours we spent in revising his work (yes friends, we spent FOUR HOURS), his girlfriend called him about six times. After the fourth call, Christian muttered "Bakit ba ang mga babae pabago-bago ng isip?"

I've heard that statement about a gazillion times before. Without thinking, I've managed to blurt out a counter-attack.

"At least ang mga babae nag-iisip."

Eh di natahimik siya. Bitch talaga ako minsan. Haha.

22 August 2007

Math the Korean Way

Yesterday, I watched A Love Story with my mom. Pretty good for a Filipino produced movie. But then, maybe I shouldn't have watched it. A sappy love story is the last thing that I need right now in my state of being. I was fighting really hard with my tear ducts in some of the scenes.

Damang-dama ko ang pasakit kay Maricel Soriano, kahit siya pa ang querida. Pakshet. Ang jologs ko.

*****
Anyway, taking a breather from all that melodramatic posts, I had a Korean student earlier. I discussed with him basic Math for the Ateneo College Entrance Test.

Anybody who is looking for challenge, try teaching Math to a Korean.

For one, explaining the concept of an arithmetic and geometric sequence is difficult enough even when done to a group of Filipino-speaking individuals. Double the dose of difficulty for someone who can only comprehend in English. Now do the math for someone who does not even have a good command of basic english.

Ang sakit sa bangs!!!

16 August 2007

Online Shopping

Classes were suspended earlier so naturally, students will opt not to attend their tutorials today. My day ended early, with Kiko as my only student (it's his last day today .) I decided to pay my bills and go to SM at about 1:30.

Bad idea.

Apparently, typhoon Egay (tama ba?) wanted to keep me company. It rained hard during that 3 minute trek from Balara to the jeepney terminal in front of Vinzon's Hall. Worse, my umbrella waved its white flag to the wind and there was no jeep at that time. So even though I had a roof above my head, I was still soaking wet as the wind blew in my direction.


Literal. Basang sisiw talaga.


*****


I received my first ebay purchase yesterday: a red and camel studded bag from Nine West. It came with a free red wallet. Ang bilis. A day after I deposited my payment for it, the package arrived in my doorstep (well not really, as I had it delivered
at Ahead.)




I had another purchase, this time for Dana (kasi sabi niya birthday naman daw niya), a Hello Kitty wallet which I paid for earlier today.







And today I bidded on two items more: a black bag from Nine West and a make-up brush set from Lancome.


Waaah!!! Pigilan niyo ko! Baka maging addiction ko ang ebay!!!

14 August 2007

Neutralize: 15 Simple Joys

Okay, so para hindi naman ako masyadong pessimistic ico-counter ko yung 15 most hated ko ng 15 things na kinatutuwaan ko naman. Ika nga sa Sound of Music (na hindi ko naman talaga sure kung ito ang lyrics basta yung thought pareho yun ang mahalaga doon ) "When I'm feeling sad...I smile and think of my favorite things then I wouldn't feel...so bad."

Kung ganoon lang sana kasimple.


1. Yung paglabas ng mob ng MRT sa Cubao station kapag rush hour.
Friends and sarap ng feeling, para kang claustrophobic na nakawala sa suffocation ng what seems like gazillion of people. Sa tuwing galing akong Makati eh ina-anticipate ko talaga ang Cubao station. Para akong batang excited sa more or less five minutes na trip mula sa Santolan.


2. Pag-earn ng points sa iba't-ibang cards
Kaya ko gustong bumibili ng libro sa National Bookstore para madagdagan yung points ko sa Laking National Card ko (na ang pathetic kasi three years na at 70 pesos pa alng ang epurse ko.) Wala lang ang saya lang makita na malapit na ako sa 1000 pesos at mag-eearn na naman ako ng extra ten pesos. Same reason why I buy coffee from The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf kasi meron silang swirl card. Never mind the planner of Starbucks, I'm not that much into planning anyway. Kaya nga sabog-sabog buhay ko eh. Plus their Mocha Latte is yummy.


3. Makita si Derek Ramsay on TV
Mahabaging langit, nanood ako ng Panday para lang kay Derek Ramsay. Pakealam ko kay Jericho at Heart kahit sila pa ang bida. Pinanood ko rin siya sa Super Inggo (though aaminin ko na gusto ko ang tambalang Budong at pareng Jomar) at ngayon naman sa Ysabella at You Can Dance. Jologs na kung jologs, hotness kaya si Derek noh!


4. Tenth and twenty-fifth day of the month
Sweldo eh. Wala ng paliwanagan.


5. 3-day sale ng SM Malls
Dinadayo ko pa talaga ang megamall para lang sa sale. Para akong ibong nakawala sa hawla sa pagdapo sa iba-ibang tindahan. Lalo na ang 50% off sa Kamiseta. At yun para ring ibong nakalipad ang pera sa wallet ko. Buti na lang at wala pa akong credit card kung hindi eh baon na ako sa utang.


6. Ang makapagbenta sa Ebay
Sa wakas nabawi ko rin ang dalawang-libo ko dahil sa may bumili na ng Creative Zen Universal Travel Adapter ko (na naisip ko na dapat pala ay nangunguna sa stress list ko ang Creative dahil sa dinanas ko sa lecheng Vision M na yan.) Kudos to Mark Reyes for being a good buyer.


7. Makakita ng random person unexpectedly
Eto nangyari lang kanina. Nakita ko si Carlo sa jeep sa UP na biyaheng SM North. Ang saya lang na may makikita kang tao ng hindi sinasadya, lalo na yung matagal mo ng hindi nakikita. Kaya sa tuwing may gimik ako, always on the lookout ako for people. Para kasing serendipity na pinagtagpo kayo at that time. Okay cheesy na.

Ang hindi maganda diyan eh kapag may nakita ka na ayaw mo namang makita.


8. Ilibre
Sino bang hindi gusto to? Kaya nga ba gusto kong nakikita si Tres eh. Free lunch. Free movie. Free dinner. Free pamasahe. Hahaha! Free loader to the highest level.


9. Kiko Arambulo
Etong batang to ang pangde-stress ko. Sa sobrang cute niya eh nakakalimutan ko ang mga pagkainis ko sa buhay kahit sa loob lang ng dalawang oras. Kapag nagsawa na mag-aral, printan lang ng Transformers coloring pages at masaya na siyang magkukulay habang kumakanta ng "We're All in This Together" ng High School Musical.


10. Ang makapagmaldita at mang-okray kasama ng mga bading
Feeling ko lang wala ng bukas para tumawa whenever I am with gay friends. Oo sige, mang-ookray sila pero hindi ko mawari kung bakit katanggap-tanggap ang pang-ookray nila. Iba sila humirit eh. Laugh trip.

Mabait naman talaga ako eh (ehem), huwag lang ako sasagarin at ilalabas ko ang pangil ko. Masarap kasi mambara. At gustong-gusto ko nambabatok ng mascot (na hindi ko alam kung bakit.) Pangarap ko nga na maitulak yung mascot ng M&M's pababa ng escalator tapos dahil sa bilog siya eh hindi siya makakatayo t sa halip ay magkakakampay para makatayo.

Dream sequence ko yun eh.


11. Si Bok at ang Barkada Trip
Tuwang-tuwa ako sa 5-minute segment ng Barkada Trip sa Studio 23. Lupet ni Bok. Idol. Kaya sising-sisi ako na hindi ako nakapagpa-picture sa kanya nung UPLB Feb Fair. Sayang pagkakataon na.


12. Ice Cream of The Creamery
Those who haven't eaten here yet are missing half of their lives. Located near Gilmore in Aurora Boulevard, The Creamery is heaven for all ice cream lovers.

O diba parang spiel sa Us Girls?

Seriously though, ang sarap ng ice cream dito! Winner din yung Onion Rings nila.


13. Text galing kay crush at ang paglaganap ng mga alagain sa Ahead
Yuck parang high school, kinikilig sa text. Tumbling talaga ang pakiramdam. Kanya-kanya lang yan walang pakealaman.

Dumarami na ang mga alagain sa Ahead. Oo na, aaminin ko na may crush ako na fourth year high school. Nakakahiya.

Dapat talaga eh makakita na ako ng age ko at puro bata ang nakikita ko. Baka mamaya maisipan ko na silang bigyan ng load.


14. Ocean
At peace ako sa dagat eh. Kahit pa nagmomoment ako doon eh kalmado ako, walang anxiety attacks. I get to clear my mind of everything that bothers me at the moment. I get to write, which is really my outlet for all the crappy emotions that I am feeling. It's just so serene that I do not want to leave. Too bad ang nearest body of water ay ang Manila Bay. I don't think I would be at peace sa Roxas Boulevard.


15. Just to be taken care of
It feels good when you know that there is SOMEONE out there who will hold me whenever my world crumbles. Support system ba. Too bad, I haven't felt that in a long time now.


Ironically, it really took me a while to finish this entry. Is my state of being really that chaotic right now that my pursuit of happiness have taken a major detour?

I guess I have to make a U-turn before I get trapped in this maze.

Help. Hindi pa nga pala ako magaling mag-drive.

13 August 2007

Nostalgia

Tech 2001 had a reunion last night at Eastwood City. Thirty-three were present, about one third of our original number. The food was not so good but that does not matter as everyone got to catch up on each other's lives. Or at least catch up on the lives of the people that they wanted to hear from

Basically the boys got fat, or developed beer bellies. I think only Peter and Winston did not. Ean and Bermas were supersized. Simon now stands about six feet, a far cry from his small size back then. Jayson apparently still looks the same. Keith's hair is longer. Liz now teaches English at Pisay (which I find really odd). Mike lost a lot of weight (pero kung dati eh para siyang addict na may tipus sa kapayatan, ngayon addict na lang. Peace tayo Mike! ) Rex is getting richer. Gwapo pa rin si Daniel. Gago pa rin si Earl, Vlad at Jomar.




And of course, Ana, Banj, Giulia, Joanne (the adopted Solid for the night) and me are still as pretty as ever. Walang kokontra!

Food and booze were all we needed and we were all set to party!

11 August 2007

The 15 Most Hated

Napagtanto ko na napakarami ko palang bagay na kinaiinisan. Kaya siguro ko stressed.

1. Mga jeep na hindi mo naman pinapara pero tinitigilan ka pa rin.
Una sa lahat, kung sasakay ako eh di dapat nagkakakampay na ako para tigilan ako ni manong driver. Pero hindi eh, titigil pa talaga siya sa harapan ko at hindi pa siya makukuntento doon. Bubusinahan pa niya talaga ako. Ang malupit dyan, may mga driver na maiinis pa kasi hindi ka sasakay.

2. Mga taong sumisingit sa pila.
Eto nangyari lang sakin kanina. Pasimple pa talaga yung babae sa linya sa MRT. Naku naman, ang klaro kung nasaan yung pila at nasa gilid siya. Ayoko lang talaga ng gulo kaya sige mauna ka na lang. Sana sa susunod eh may sumingit din sa harapan mo.

3. Yung bagong pedicure ka tapos uulan
Panalo 'to eh. Kakapalinis mo pa lang ng kuko tapos sa limang minutong ulan eh maitim na naman ang mga kuko ko.

4. Ang overpriced Korean store sa 3rd floor ng FBR
Eto lang ha. Yung presyo ng Mr. Chips na maliit doon eh ten pesos. 100% profit?! Overpricing at its finest. Pero bumibili pa rin naman ako. Walang choice eh.

5. Mga novelty song sa jeep at FX
Utang na loob, ang hirap magturo at ang LSS mo eh "sige ikembot. sige ikembot. ikembot mo to the front."

6. Na hindi pa rin nakakatakas sa palasyo ng Buyong si Lady Yua at Lady Soya
Nakailang attempts na ba sila? Pero lagi silang nahuhuli. Kumusta naman yun?

7. Yung mga batang nagpupunas ng paa mo sa jeep sa may Agham Road
Promise hindi nakakatulong. Lalo pa't nakikita mo kung gaano na kadumi yung mga basahan nila. Konting punas tas hihingi ng pera. Isang beses (eh hindi naman talaga ako nagbibigay) talagang nasugatan yung braso ko kakakalabit nung bata. Ang haba pa man din ng kuko niya.

8. Magising ng wala sa oras at antukin pero hindi makatulog
Ang hirap ko kaya makakuha ng tulog. Kaya sobrang bwisit ako kapag ginigising ako ng kapatid ko para lang hiramin ang jacket ko. Tapos hindi na ako makakabalik sa tulog. O kaya naman inaantok na ako pero aabutin ako ng tatlong oras kaiikot sa kama. Tapos umaga na. Leche.

9. Si Joshua Pineda at ang buong pamilya niya
O diba? Ibang klase talaga ang epekto ng batang ito sakin. Hindi ako maka-get over. Ikaw na ang tutor na kailangang gumawa ng project. Cut-outs na project. Para sa mga nagtataka eh grade 7 na siya. At kinakailangan pa niya ng tutor sa CLE. Feeling ko dito talaga nagsimula ang lahat ng stress ko sa buhay ko ngayon.

10. Yung mga inaabuso ang unlimitext
Ikaw na ang magtext nga Good morning, good afternoon at good night. Pati "kain na tayo lunch na!" Akala mo importante na eh sinusulit lang pala yang promo ng mga networks na yan. Minsan nga hindi ko na bonabasa yung text eh. Delete na agad.

11. Yung self-righteous at mga feeling biktima.
Perfect ka? Naku naman, kung feeling mo eh wala kang ginagawang mali eh magnilay-nilay ka sa Sagada at saka na tayo mag-usap.

12. Mga taong self-absorbed

Pare ko hindi lang ikaw ang tao sa mundo. Huwag kang mag-feeling dyan. Umayos ka.

13. Yung pinaghihintay ako at mga taong drawing at the last minute.
Dito ako inis na inis talaga. Ever since lagi akong on time, at kung sinusubukan kong magpa-late, mas late pa rin ang mga taong ka-meet ko. Tapos ayoko rin ng mga paasa pero hindi naman tutupad sa usapan. Bumaba bigla ang energy level ko. Sinasayang mo oras ko.

14. Mga taong fickle at hindi alam ang gusto sa buhay.
Ikaw ay ihahambing ko sa sinusoidal wave (engineer talaga ako. kadiri.) Minsan okay ka, minsan hindi. Ang labo hindi kita matimpla. Ayusin mo buhay mo. Pati ako nakikisabay dyan sa up and down na graph mo. Sana maging linear ka na lang. Kung pababa ang slope eh di pababa. Kung pataas, puro pataas na lang. Sa mga intellectual na nakakaintindi nito, palakpakan ninyo ang sarili niyo.


At higit sa lahat...
15. Sarili ko
Kasi hindi ko pa rin ma-control ang lahat ng aspeto ng buhay ko. Sobrang madikit ako sa mga komplikadong sitwasyon. Hindi ko magawang matuwa sa kahit anong bagay. Marami akong agam-agam at takot sa buhay. Alam kong maraming mali pero wala akong magawang paraan. O di kaya naman hinahayaan ko na lang. Hindi ako matahimik, pakiramdam ko laging may kulang. Para akong donut na may butas sa gitna.

Ewan ko ba bakit ko naisipan isulat 'to.

10 August 2007

Makulay ang Buhay Daig Pa ang Sinabawang Gulay

My wake up call today was a very good one. It was Ms. Nellie, HR for Mabuhay Vinyl Corporation (yes I talked to her even though I haven't gained full control of my cerebrum yet) asking if I could come tomorrow for an interview. Because I had a prior commitment, I asked if I could be interviewed today. Thankfully she agreed.


Fast forward to 12 NN at the MRT. I was reviewing the company profile of Mabuhay Vinyl and the commercial uses of caustic soda and hydrochloric acid when suddenly there was this old lady who entered the coach at the Kamuning station. Sanay naman na ako sa mga taong nag-pre-preach kuno sa mga bus pero ibang klase ito sa MRT talaga.I was expecting her to state some bible passages then distribute envelopes asking for donations. But the unexpected happened.


She suddenly went on persecuting the homosexuals stating that all of them will go to hell. Then I looked at the person sitting closest to her. If my instincts are correct, I believe that she is a lesbian. Good thing that she was busy listening to her ipod.

Naman manang, ano ba problema mo? Ang importante eh wala silang inaagrabyadong tao. Eh sa tingin mo pupunta ka sa langit dahil dyan sa pagiging judgemental mo? So matanong ko lang po ha, sino ang pupunta sa langit? Yung machong lalaking nakataga ng kaaway sa kanto o yung bading na nag-mamanicure sa salon?

I got fed up with all the crap that she was talking about (I was actually on the verge of telling her to shut up) that I decided to take my Creative Zen Vision W (ang haba, buti pa ang ipod four letters lang) and drown her voice with Nickelback music.

*****
I try to save by not riding alone on a tricycle. This evening, as I don't want to sit at the back of the driver, I hurried towards the trike since I saw that there was no one sitting inside yet. There was someone ahead of me, which was okay since a trike can accomodate two people inside, when suddenly out of nowhere this girl cut in front of me.

Beeeyatch!!!

Nakita na nga niya akong papunta na sa tricycle eh. Kung hindi ba naman siya bastos! May araw ka rin!

08 August 2007

Rendezvous

While peyups.com does not seem to accept new articles yet, I've decided to post all my articles in my blog for the meantime. This one is the outcome of one very lazy afternoon.

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I went on a vacation to think and sort out my messed up life. There was just something with the sound of the waves crashing into the shore that soothes me. I have been living in a world of stress and I want to get out of it badly. I want to heal. I want to forget. Meeting you was never part of the plan.

But then I never really paid any attention to you. Not until that Tuesday. It was one of those days when I was sitting on my veranda, sipping on a mango smoothie and doing one of my favorite hobbies: staring into nothingness. It was a lazy afternoon on the beach when I first saw a glimpse of you lying on a hammock reading John Steinbeck. We were on the same shore, my veranda just across yours. I knew right then that you are not the typical guy and this is not going to be a typical summer.

You met my eye and smiled.

That was how it all began. Every afternoon we would see each other doing the same thing everyday. It was very casual indeed until you decided to end it all by going across and introducing yourself.

I learned that you are an aspiring lawyer and you decided to take a breather from all the pressures of school. You never really wanted to be an lawyer; you just had to follow the wish of your mother. That was the reason why you involved yourself with soccer, so that you can release all your frustrations with just one kick of the ball.

We just clicked and I cannot explain why. We could talk about any topic from fishballs to making fun of people to much more serious matters such as commitments and relationships. I actually began to enjoy your company and it was scary.

I’ve been burned a number of times and this is actually the reason why I went away from the city. Relationships have not been very good to me. I do not need this feeling right now. But it was inevitable.

For two months I found myself drawing my smiles from you knowing that for something to exist between us is quite impossible. Our present situations do not permit to us to be anything other than acquaintances. Anything more than that is just way too complicated.

I believed that this time I would be in control.

Until one morning there was somebody else lying on the hammock. And time stood still. I stood still.

You were gone in what seemed as if one swift motion and that’s about it. You will only remain as one happy memory in a corner in my mind, and yet another hurtful shard in my heart.

The rain just started to make its presence felt. The heat has passed and everything’s cold now.

The clouds have started to spread its gloom.

Summer is over.

And I too need to leave now.

04 August 2007

Sale! Sale! Sale!

So I shopped today (wow what's new?) Anyway, enough of mocking myself. I went to SM North EDSA's three day sale, as I anticipate this "major" event every time, and purchased some stuff. Here's my list:

original price sale price
1. mustard shirt from Forever 21 600 200
2. black and pink blouse from Forever 21 625 250
3. brown vest from Maldita 150 100
4. Maybelline foundation refill 425 300


After I went to SM, I headed for Makati to pass my resume to Mabuhay Vinyl Corporation and to meet Ana, Gents, Moki and Joseph (once again dear friends I was sandwiched in the middle of doting couples) to watch
Transformers. I arrived at Makati at about 1:30 PM and I only had about 45 minutes so I could catch the movie. I was pretty confident because Mabuhay Vinyl's office is located in Philamlife building and I can so vividly remember that the building is just along Ayala Ave. I decided to walk.

So I arrive there at about 2 PM. Problem solved right?

Hell no!

That building is the Philamlife Tower and not the Philamlife Building. So I had to walk another 15 minutes and finally I reached my destination. So I passed my resume and filled up some forms. Then the person in the front desk told me to wait because the HR officer is going to talk to me.



Tenenenen.

I was so not prepared. My attire for the day: blue shirt, jeans and my red and gold Havaianas. So not the ideal attire to be talking to an important person.

So after all of that is over I headed to Greenbelt and finally after 48 years, I was able to watch Transformers. Cool movie.

On the way home, I passed by Kamiseta in Glorietta. And what do you know? They were also on sale. Being the impulsive shopper that I am (
in short waldas ako), I again shopped.

original price sale price
1. blue shirt 500 250
2. orange shirt 500 250

So all in all the total original price of my purchases amounts to 2800 pesos but I only spent 1350 pesos, making me save a whopping 1450 pesos. That's huge right?

Actually kinoconvince ko lang ang sarili ko na worth it gumastos. :p

02 August 2007

Deo-sprayed

Yesterday I had a student who kept on spraying his deodorant on his bag for one whole hour. I hate deo-sprays. They just smell too harsh for me, especially this one. It reminded me of bathroom deodorizer. So just imagine the torture, especially for me who has asthma.

So I told the kid, "Please wag ka na mag-spray."

And my plea landed on deaf ears.

I am not the most patient around, but because my work requires me to be one I try me very best to be as angelic as possible. But then one can only take so much.

So I asked him again. Now in an irritated voice.

"Huwag ka na mag-spray kasi may asthma ako. Parang awa."

And the kid answered with utmost joy in his voice.

"Yey! Mamamatay na si tutor."

Naku kung hindi lang bawal eh sasampigain ko talaga tong batang 'to eh.
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